I want to share other people’s writing here as well as my own so here’s a letter/poem that I read last week, which was up on the wall at Penhurst.
From Telihard de Chardin (nope I have no idea who he is either…)in a letter to his sister in 1915.
Above all, trust in the slow work of God,
We are, quite naturally,
impatient in everything to reach the end
We should like to skip
the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being
on the way to something unknown,
And yet it is the law of all progress
that it is made by passing through
some stages of instability-
And that it may take a very long time.
And so I think it is with you.
Your ideas mature gradually –
let them grow,
let them shape themselves,
without undue haste.
Don’t try and force them on,
as though you could be today
what time (that is to say, grace and
on your own good will)
will make you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming within you will be.
Give our Lord the benefit of believing
that his hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of
feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete.
I love that phrase near the end, ‘Give our Lord the benefit of believing that his hand is leading you’. In all my churning thoughts about faith and how my understanding of things is changing I love that God is holding me, leading me and is bigger than mine or anyone else’s understanding of what it means to follow Jesus. I am in suspense and incomplete in many ways but in the midst of that I am held, led and cared for. The slow work of God is happening and it might be good for me to remember to slow down to taste it once in a while.